Since starting the #IncUoBator research project I’ve thought a lot about the person I was between the ages of 15 and 30, the period when I particularly suffered anxiety symptoms. I didn’t exactly cut myself much slack, yet made some extremely questionable life choices which, with hindsight, were very much informed by my rampaging thyroid condition and my inability to manage it.
I don’t have many pictures from that period of my life – 1995-2010 was pretty much the start of the mobile phone revolution, so digital photography was a far rarer thing. However, I did find this image from around 2002-2003. Taken in the living room of the house I shared with my now ex husband, I find it difficult to look at but also grimly fascinating.
The film is a monologue over this image, and refers to my feeling towards the person I once was.